God is jealous for our affections. Colossians 3.

Colossians 3. Wow. Never really sat down and read it. Deeply. Well today in Chapel during music we read this. It spoke so heavily to me. So very deep to me. So I went back and read, read, read, & re-read it. Time & time again. It spoke to me differently every time. This is just a few of the powerful verses that really spoke to me very heavily, "⁵ Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. ⁶ Because of these, the wrath of God is coming.^{[b] 7} You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. ⁸ But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. ⁹ Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices ¹⁰ and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator"  Wow. Thats life changing for me. These last few days have been very rough for me. I'm just trying to take time to let everything sink in and realize what God wants from me not what I want. His will is far better than I could ever imagine, even though right now it may not seem like it. Yes, yes I know life is not always a smooth ride. But sometimes it seems like way more than I can handle. Like right now. But clearly God will never give me more than I can handle. So I am just taking it day by day. Knowing deep down that everything will work for the good of Gods will. In His time not mine. So thankful for all the wonderful people here at BCF that know just how to brighten this girls day, all the time. 

                                                                      Beautiful friendship :)

Back to reality. Blessings. Eyes being opened.

Who ever came up with a week off for Thanksgiving, then go back to school, then finals, then out for 6 weeks is sorry to say this but an idiot! As harsh as that may sound this stinks. Blah. I do not want to go back to both jobs and school. BUT I am a very blessed girl, and will not dwell on the bad. I will take it and run with it. I fully believe God has me the elementary school for a reason! Even though im not exactly sure on the reason yet I will figure it out sooner or later. Here recently I have started writing in this journal for my future husband. I love it. It gets so much off my chest, knowing I can connect with him somehow even though im not sure who he is yet. One day this journal will be a veryyy precious, sweet, and loving gift. The best gift that could be given. I start off every post with Hey Husband. P.s. I cant wait to say that one day. But in the mean time I am focused on becoming the woman of God that I need to be in a relationship. Also trying to become patient, and content with where God has me right now. Im here for a reason and need to become content with where God has me. I am not saying I do not like BCF, not saying that at all! Just saying I miss home so much. Leaving is so hard. I usually cry all the way back to BCF. & especially after being home a week! BUT I will enjoy it, I will make the best of the opportunity God has provided for me to have 2 jobs, and a to be receiving a Christian education. So blessed. On my way back to the college I heard the song "How He Loves Us" by David Crowder Band. Wow. Have you sat down and really listened to the lyrics of that song? If not, please do. Those words are so powerful & can change a life! Can any of us completely grasp and fathom how much He loves us? Its such a huge concept to fully take in. I cant even begin to explain all the thoughts that come to mind every time I hear that song. It blesses me & shows me a full new meaning every time. Yesterday the huge Florida vs. Florida State game took place. & wow. Never seen so much crap on FB. If the Gospel & word of God was spoken as much as football was talked about yesterday, this world would be such a better place. It really got me yesterday. Usually I just overlook/overread it. But yesterday I couldnt, for some odd reason. Well seeing as how I should be doing the homework that I procrastinated all of Thanksgiving break doing, ill get off and do it, hmmm later ;)

                                                               Such a Beautiful song!

Holidays. Life.

Whew. 2011 already over? The year I waited for, for so long. The year I graduated high school. Everyone said I would miss high school, yeah right. Just miss living under my parents roof! With Thanksgiving already coming and gone. Now Christmas approaching rather quickly, where does the time go? Oh wait I know, slips right out from under our feet. I am so Thankful & blessed beyond measure. Its hard to even explain how much the Lord has blessed me with this year. & with the Thankful season still in the air let me list a few:

1. BCF; being given a wonderful Christian Education

2. Not one but TWO wonderful jobs!

3. My family. A wonderful family who supports my decisions.

4. A wonderful friend/mentor Lauren Crews.

5. A car that gets me from point A to point B (even though it is tore up most of the time)'

6. Mexican food; my 2nd love

7. My father the Lord Jesus Christ. Dont even know where to begin on that topic.

Thats just a few of the MANY things! The list could go on & on & on. I am thankful for so very much in my life. I am one blessed girl, thats for sure! :)

 It was a wonderful Saturday for a photo shoot in Gracevegas ;)