New Year, New Resolutions.

The year I have waited for for 18 years has come and gone. Graduating high school, moving out, starting college, beginning the second chapter of my life. It was not as easy, and smooth sailing as I thought it would be. But hey, I made it. To college and 2 jobs. So as I say goodbye to the best year yet I think that the best is yet to come. God has done a mighty work in me these last two years. My past doesnt look like I wish it did. But it got me where I am today. Noone is perfect, right? Right! Whew crazy to say its 2012. But it is. Crazy. 2011 had some great memories, some sad, & some life changing events. But I wouldnt change it for the world. 2012 is coming with ALOT in store. The most exciting thing I look forward to is Summer 2012! Working Centri Kid!! I can hardly wait. Oh & not to mention I leave for Passion in about 11 hours!! So with the new year upon us, its time for resolutions.

1.) Lose 25 pounds.
2.) Become and stay content in any situation that God has me. Completely content.
3.) Become a good steward of money. GOOD.
4.) Make no excuses for missing a day of quiet time with the Lord. NO EXCUSES!
                 (hold me accountable people)


The holidays. Were very good. Family, food, memories made = success. Break from school was great. Although I must say I was way beyond ready to return. I cant stand sitting at home in pajamas all day every day. These last couple weeks were great for recuperation.

  

Big milestone, Graduation from high school. Class of 2011.

                                                                            College life.

                                                                    Mom and all four of us kids. Priceless.

                                                                                 Brotherly love!

                                                                               Sweet sweet Chrimma time!

Holidays.

Never in my life have I been so very excited for the Holidays. For Christmas, presents, and just the meaning of the season, and it being spent with my family. I am so excited this year. I can not wait. I am just oh so very excited. Today has been spent watching Hallmark Christmas movies all day. (never got out of my pajamas) Lazy day, yes I think so. I never have time for this, so I will take advantage of this while I have the chance. I miss my BCF family already, but im sure this break will fly by. Speaking of flying. This girl got a ticket to fly down south to see her best friend aka roommate leaving January 8th! I am so beyond excited. It has been so long since I have blogged. That the newest exciting news issssss..... (drum roll) I GOT A JOB WITH CENTRI KID OVER THE SUMMER!!! I am so beyond excited. The Lord sure is blessing me thats for sure. Also being content with life, has become wayyyy easier here lately. I have had so much bravery to stand up for what I believe, not let anyone run over me, and to not care what other people think of me. God made me just the way I am. There is no reason to be jealous of anyone, or to care what anyone thinks of me. This is a little quote from something I came across the other day, "While a woman is waiting to find the man of her dreams, she should not fall into a slump of misery. Her heart should be enlivened and she should grow deeper in her relationship with God. If she happens to fall in love with a man, oh how lucky that man will be to find a woman who is so devoted to living her life for the Lord. If she does not, that's fine too, because her relationship with God is enough for her and provides the eternal fulfillment that no human relationship can." Touched me in so many ways. I worry to much about the future. I need to live in the present, be thankful, and realize the time will come when I will be so lost in my love for the Lord that a man will seek Him to find me. 

Both of these videos are so true. & touched my life in many ways. So as I sit here with family, enjoying my time off in the midst of the holidays I truly realize how blessed I am.


& oh did I happen to mention that I FINISHED MY FIRST SEMESTER OF COLLEGE!! 1 DOWN 7 TO GO!! 18 NEXT SEMESTER!!

God is jealous for our affections. Colossians 3.

Colossians 3. Wow. Never really sat down and read it. Deeply. Well today in Chapel during music we read this. It spoke so heavily to me. So very deep to me. So I went back and read, read, read, & re-read it. Time & time again. It spoke to me differently every time. This is just a few of the powerful verses that really spoke to me very heavily, "⁵ Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. ⁶ Because of these, the wrath of God is coming.^{[b] 7} You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. ⁸ But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. ⁹ Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices ¹⁰ and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator"  Wow. Thats life changing for me. These last few days have been very rough for me. I'm just trying to take time to let everything sink in and realize what God wants from me not what I want. His will is far better than I could ever imagine, even though right now it may not seem like it. Yes, yes I know life is not always a smooth ride. But sometimes it seems like way more than I can handle. Like right now. But clearly God will never give me more than I can handle. So I am just taking it day by day. Knowing deep down that everything will work for the good of Gods will. In His time not mine. So thankful for all the wonderful people here at BCF that know just how to brighten this girls day, all the time. 

                                                                      Beautiful friendship :)

Back to reality. Blessings. Eyes being opened.

Who ever came up with a week off for Thanksgiving, then go back to school, then finals, then out for 6 weeks is sorry to say this but an idiot! As harsh as that may sound this stinks. Blah. I do not want to go back to both jobs and school. BUT I am a very blessed girl, and will not dwell on the bad. I will take it and run with it. I fully believe God has me the elementary school for a reason! Even though im not exactly sure on the reason yet I will figure it out sooner or later. Here recently I have started writing in this journal for my future husband. I love it. It gets so much off my chest, knowing I can connect with him somehow even though im not sure who he is yet. One day this journal will be a veryyy precious, sweet, and loving gift. The best gift that could be given. I start off every post with Hey Husband. P.s. I cant wait to say that one day. But in the mean time I am focused on becoming the woman of God that I need to be in a relationship. Also trying to become patient, and content with where God has me right now. Im here for a reason and need to become content with where God has me. I am not saying I do not like BCF, not saying that at all! Just saying I miss home so much. Leaving is so hard. I usually cry all the way back to BCF. & especially after being home a week! BUT I will enjoy it, I will make the best of the opportunity God has provided for me to have 2 jobs, and a to be receiving a Christian education. So blessed. On my way back to the college I heard the song "How He Loves Us" by David Crowder Band. Wow. Have you sat down and really listened to the lyrics of that song? If not, please do. Those words are so powerful & can change a life! Can any of us completely grasp and fathom how much He loves us? Its such a huge concept to fully take in. I cant even begin to explain all the thoughts that come to mind every time I hear that song. It blesses me & shows me a full new meaning every time. Yesterday the huge Florida vs. Florida State game took place. & wow. Never seen so much crap on FB. If the Gospel & word of God was spoken as much as football was talked about yesterday, this world would be such a better place. It really got me yesterday. Usually I just overlook/overread it. But yesterday I couldnt, for some odd reason. Well seeing as how I should be doing the homework that I procrastinated all of Thanksgiving break doing, ill get off and do it, hmmm later ;)

                                                               Such a Beautiful song!

Holidays. Life.

Whew. 2011 already over? The year I waited for, for so long. The year I graduated high school. Everyone said I would miss high school, yeah right. Just miss living under my parents roof! With Thanksgiving already coming and gone. Now Christmas approaching rather quickly, where does the time go? Oh wait I know, slips right out from under our feet. I am so Thankful & blessed beyond measure. Its hard to even explain how much the Lord has blessed me with this year. & with the Thankful season still in the air let me list a few:

1. BCF; being given a wonderful Christian Education

2. Not one but TWO wonderful jobs!

3. My family. A wonderful family who supports my decisions.

4. A wonderful friend/mentor Lauren Crews.

5. A car that gets me from point A to point B (even though it is tore up most of the time)'

6. Mexican food; my 2nd love

7. My father the Lord Jesus Christ. Dont even know where to begin on that topic.

Thats just a few of the MANY things! The list could go on & on & on. I am thankful for so very much in my life. I am one blessed girl, thats for sure! :)

 It was a wonderful Saturday for a photo shoot in Gracevegas ;)

Blessings in disguise.

Its been a while since I have actually had time to sit down and blog. I miss it. But between being sick, college, work, and spending time with a certain someone I never have down time. But being sick today, and Taylor being out of town gives me time to sit down and do what I enjoy. I have recently been trying to update my blog, but im still in the learning process. So expect some changes soon. The good Lord has been blessing me like crazy here lately. I get so home sick sometimes. And at those times when I begin to believe im not supposed to be at BCF anymore the Lord throws some stuff in my face to prove to me that I am supposed to be here. The other day I was complaining about my financial situation, then 20 minutes later I have a new job! He has put an amazing guy in my life. And I could not of asked for anything better. There have been some verses that God has just thrown out there to me lately 1 John 4:18-19 & Song of Solomon 3:4 have stuck out to me lately. I am so excited to see what the good Lord has in store for my future. 

                                                       Yes, this is what we do during class (:

                                                                 Biggest Hugest Blessing (:

My roommate loves me (:

College full swing, Work. Life.

Whoa. Its been so long since I have had the chance to blog. I have been so busy. Between classes kicking in full swing, work,spending my daily time with the Lord, and amazing people God has put into my life; I have time for nothing. Here lately God has put some amazing people in my life. He has blessed with me with a wonderful man. Who my whole family meet this weekend, and loved him. He is a great guy(: The friendships im making here at BCF are insanely awesome. The girls here are awesome, and these memories and friendships will last a lifetime. Oh college, the joys of procrastination, yes me. I literally just started a paper and finished a paper tonight, that I knew about 2 1/2 weeks ago. Yes procrastination, I know you, love you and hate you at the same time. Haha. Oh how I wish I was sleeping right now, but my roommate and a friend are wedding talking, so im stuck awake. :/

God blesses me beyond measure when I least expect it :)

My new project, everyday when I do my devotion I write the main passage on a index card and am making a collage on my wall(:

Hurry fast, off to class I go.